There are things we know, there are things we believe and then there are things we question or doubt. Rather than creating a divide between knowing and believing, we will find that our curiosity and desire for understanding will benefit and grow most when we let them dance together. It is normal to constantly be […]
Bottom line is that I guess I still do believe in God. Not in a ‘I’m certain of it’ kind of way but my soul still longs for it to be true (you know, like a thirsty deer kinda thing). I still do believe in the good news of grace, forgiveness and the renewal of all things. Not in a 4 spiritual laws, you’re in or you’re out kind of way but in a simple “ya, somethings off in our humanity and as amazing as our increasing scientific knowledge might be, it doesn’t answer everything” kind of way. I don’t have the headspace to complicate it more than that.
It hurt. I didn’t show it that evening. I went along with it, rolled over and said, “of course this makes total sense.” I felt betrayed. I felt used. I felt like I was being fired for doing exactly what I was hired to do in the first place. It sucked. I wanted these people whom I felt had betrayed me to go straight to hell.